Somehow I start to feel better about my situation.
Mark called and told me he'd do whatever it takes to try and get me to D.C, but if not I'm def. going to have a job in Pittsburgh, He promised.
I finally broke down and called the most important one and we had a positive conversation I think. I'm not supposed to call until Tuesday but since today is Friday, I should be able to make it. It was nice to just talk about normal stuff again. It's still so hard not to im him....but our conversation! The usual, just nothing really about our relationship. I really should start to learn to call him by his name and not babe though. I think that was awkward for him.
I did find out the most useful thing during that conversation...I know exactly what went wrong and that helps...now I know what exactly what I should be working on for the future.
*****Phone Conversation (he calls me!!)
Yes...I definitely feel better about my situation now, yes it will take time, but I have faith that I could change enough to make this work....
the only problem...Mark might make D.C. work out and then I have to make a major life choice
A.) Stay in D.C. for a year and try it out - stay if I want - move to Pittsburgh if it will make me happier
B.) Fight for Pittsburgh and tell Mark that I just can't go
But it's my choice so I guess I should think about it more.
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